Uhhhn

So I ended up being really really tired and didn't go out. I woke up a little while ago from a nap, but I'm still really tired. I feel like I should go out, but I don't want to, even though I kinda do, but also: I don't.

Reasons to go: 1. to have fun, 2. to be friendly, 3. maybe the French people from last night will be there and I might make more lasting friendships. (With real live French people.)

Reasons not to go: 1. I am very tired, 2. I'd have to walk all the way there by myself.

Some of my reasons to go involve guilt, like: it's the first weekend. I should go out, cement bonds, not be "that girl"... And the whole "walk alone" thing isn't so much about danger, it's just that it's not fun to walk all the way by myself and I needed to make my list to not go longer.

Ugh. I hate decisions like this. I really could fall asleep right now again. I fell asleep last night around 3 and then woke up at 7:20 and could not fall back asleep. I also went shopping today.

But everyone else is out.